How I've Been Taking Things for Granted

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Taking Things For Granted

and how I realized it

The other day I had an experience with a cashier at a known store. She was this short, super cute Hawaiian lady who wore her long and flowy hair half up with a flower on top. As my friend, who was in front of me got called to her cash register I was going to stay back and wait for the next one but she urged me to come with her to the same one, so I followed. When we got there, we started unloading carts and saying hello to the cashier who smiled and nodded politely. We both bought a lot of things so while she is ringing us up, my friend looks at me and out of habit asks:

“What are you doing this weekend?”

I automatically let out a huge grunt and said: “I have to go see my mom. Uh, I forgot it’s already the weekend I didn’t have time to process it and now the time is here, I need to make peace with this.” To be honest, I was half joking. The important thing here though is that I half wasn’t.

That’s when our cashier turned to me and smiled and with a hint of an accent said to me: “You shouldn’t react that way. You should be happy you have your mother around. I lost mine 9 years ago and there’s not a day that goes by that I don’t think about her and wish I had her here. Don’t take your time left with your mother for granted.”

I immediately felt like a spoiled brat and felt terrible not just for her but for the fact that I had acted that way, I responded with “I’m sorry.” A few seconds after letting my selfishness sink in, I said: “You’re absolutely right. I always react this way but when I really think about it, I do want to hang out with her, it’s just so hard sometimes. I know that I want to and I shouldn’t ever react that way, thank you.” She smiled and nodded again.

That wasn’t the last I thought of it. In fact, it’s been 3 days and I am still thinking about it. I am thinking about how easy it is to be selfish. How if we don’t watch our actions and the things that we say, those things become who we are. This particular lesson made me think about just how easily we can lose the people that we love. That woman lost her mother who she was probably excited to see every time and here I am grunting like a spoiled child because I have to spend the day with my still living and very healthy mother.

It’s not that I have been completely unaware of the fact that I have been selfish before, but having this genuine woman in front of me, pointing it out made it that much more clear. I forgave myself even though I felt embarrassed. Being able to admit that I did something wrong and owning up to it made it easier.

Here’s the lesson: When you realize you have done or are doing something wrong, it does nothing to admit it and take no action. The most important aspect of realizing that we make mistakes, is knowing that we can fix them. I woke up the next day, actively thought about the events of the day before and smiled. I went out, bought my mom a plant and spent the day with her, this time more willingly. As always, my mother and I argued about something stupid but this time it was easier to move on from it because I am truly thankful that I have her around. It is so important to work on and become aware of our involuntary responses. I will not allow those negative reactions to leave my mouth because I refuse to let them become a part of who I am. Will you?

Until the Next Late Night,

Ughvolution

Lariannie MedinaComment